I am shrooming and i feel really vulnerable right now because i am alone, and i knew i would feel this way...its one of those nights when you examine your life and wonder about everything you have done, will do.....
sometimes i feel like i will never get there...the place that i want to be...how do i get there?
i feel invisible, vague..
how do i explain my reasons for being so irresponsible at work? its just been eating away at me that i have no explanation. now i have to face reality, real consequences.....REAL LIFE!!
when do i grow up? when? fuck life! fuck it all
i am tired of not being sure of anything...i am so chaotic, my life is so chaotic. i am too attached to my parents and my life feels like shit! i am nothing but shit.